Writer’s constipation…

A local cow pasture near where
Luli will be shooting his short film

Yesterday I was sitting in front of my computer for hours…trying to work on a new detailed outline for the film. It was a struggle to say the least. Writer’s block, thinker’s block, blocker’s block…I had it all. Finally I stood up and began praying – and with bit more desperation in this prayer than my others. I sat back down at my picnic table and opened a new blank Word document. I began applying pressure to random keys, as if I knew what I was supposed to be typing. Then, I began erasing, as my ideas were again scattered…then writing, and erasing, and then, about two hours later, what do you know, the writing had overtaken the erasing and I had a 49 point outline of the film. At about 2:00 am I was feeling an interpersonal victory of sorts, a sense that I can turn my camera on with a deliberate reason for doing so. That’s a good feeling, especially after several years of certainty, yet lack of clarity – certainty that I should be working on this film – lack of clarity as to what the film was about.

So, know that prayers are being answered. Part of my midnight prayer was that the Lord would protect me from any spiritual attack that was stifling my creativity. Whether or not this was part of the problem, the Lord answered my prayer and allowed me to complete the outline. Kosovo is a spiritually dark region – from the atrocities of the war to the spiritual battle that’s been waged in this region for hundreds of years, this is a place where your spiritual armor needs to be on good and tight. I’ve heard that said many times before regarding Kosovo, and it’s true. The Bible makes it emphatically clear that our battle is not against flesh and blood, but against something far more evil, powerful, and not of this realm. So, know that your prayers are desperately needed and greatly appreciated. The next six weeks are going to be extremely challenging. I’m halfway through the shoot, but I feel like the true test is yet to come…as is the true reward. So, pray, pray, and pray – for spiritual protection, vision, creativity, and the ability to listen and follow the real director of this project, the author of life.

For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Ephesians 6:12